punk

2005-10-15T13:54:00.000+08:00

lessons resumed.
2 MORE WEEKS...2 MORE WEEKS
and it's holiday~ haha.

Going to sch makes me more motivated
determined to study hard
got 12 points for L1R5
not enough
must strive harder
haha. anyway i'm not so greedy lah

nyjc open house yesterday!
wen there with buddies daniel, sebastian, andrea, hanan
weee~
saw our ex peirceans
si ying, jin fa, darryl & more more
chat with them gave me the feeling i'm wishing to opt for this sch more!!
haha.
si ying & her friends...and then darryl brought us around the school.
library, canteen, laboratories, homerooms haha..
and the washrooms are so much better than peirce
the quality of toilet papers also. Lol haha

i'm like a small kiddy. hung a balloon on my bag.. peeps look at me
and thought "who's this crazy small guy?" haha. dotss

saw melvin too. =)

actually today wanna visit sajc
but prefer to spend my precious time on revision
next tue bio pract
arrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~ i'm so scared. nervous nervous.
relax relax. or else i'll be wasting my adrenaline. lol
anyway some stress also not bad
lets revise bio now...

adrenaline secreted from adrenal glands. prepare for swift actions- fight, flight
P-produce
R-release
T-transport
E-exert effect
D-destroy

adrenaline helps to
1) dilate pupils
2) converts glycogen to glucose
3) activates sweat glands
4) cause breathing rate to increase
5) cause heartbeats to increase
6) make muscles tense
7) slows down digestion activity

haha. i'm telling the truth-i nv refer to notes lah
anyway all of the above not in detail. haha. =P
hmmm maybe i should do my revision online. haha lololol~

obsess obsess obsess obsess obsess obsession obsess in U
how?

2005-10-06T20:58:00.000+08:00

tml gonna get back my report card for prelims!!
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

so disappointing.

look at peeps' compo. the style of writing so nice.
for mine? sux totally. but i know one day i can produce the results..
i'm slow in language i know. or sometimes simply dun bother about it..

nice songs nice songs!! haha
===>> there with you - sly
===>> a better me - olinda

sighs sighs sighs. know quite a number of peeps around me
did unsatisfactory for prelims.
counting down...around one month bah.
work harder!!!! i'm here too..suffer with u all
haha. lol. *not funny -_-*
actually wish to see all my bosom buddies in same sch next yr bah.
then can socialise together again..haha.
for those who are not in my sch now, i wish to know u better!!

alrights alrights. maybe i'll stop blogging till 18 Nov. maybe only..

2005-10-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

-=2nd of october=-

what if i tell you i had a sweet dream during my sleep?
what if i tell you that it was you i dreamt of?

yi tian yi tian jiu zhe yang guo le..2nd oct 3rd oct 4th oct 5th oct 6th oct.......

how i wish.. hmmm..

2005-09-29T18:22:00.000+08:00

i'm very.... disappointed because i nearly failed my English OK!

Just got to blame myself...

most probably i'll get 13 points for my L1R5...

...and my dream for nyjc is torned

Meridian JC? haha. no no. extremely far

Catholic JC? hmmm...maybe cos my biao jie (cousin) is there! haha.

haha. Canggih is so crappy! he said to us to tell everyone from my class to go cjc
& set up a 4e2 there!! haha. so lame...joker.

anyway i had expected better for my L1R5..

i'm practicing hard for my Eng & Humans now and
hopefully there'll be a miracle...hopefully... =

2005-09-28T17:44:00.000+08:00

sighs. there's still something stuck in my heart.

didn't did well for my english

compre scored 21/50. bad bad bad.. I FAILED! ='(

a math paper 2 : 67/80

physics : 67/100

lessons are getting more and more boring

we're WASTING TIME IN SCHOOL!!!

the teachers don't teach much, we do self-study.

but friends are getting more & more intersting. haha

i noe we'll miss each other after this year. =)

life... great

life... sux

well, i'm beginning to work now.. hope i'll not lose out.

ahhh counter hits 1000!!! weee~.

2005-09-27T18:05:00.000+08:00

hey hey peeps.
my bluetooth got some problems.
it says that what hands free not supported.
sighs.
can't post photos yet.

anyway met melvin yesterday after school.
haha. passed him his birthday gift.
u're finally sixteen!!!!! haha. =P

argh. my phone battery so irritating
battery flat so fast wor.

sighs. should i go poly or jc?
if jc then should i go nyjc or ajc?
i dunno...

GIVE ME MOTIVATION TO STUDY!!!!! arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

anyway the 98.7fm the uncle mutton song so funny!! haha

2005-09-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

MY BLUETOOTH DUN SEEM TO BE WORKING!!!

k n n b c c b... Lol

2005-09-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday blog already, but the com went crazy.
the previous blog is erased!!!! arghh

yay! i got my nokia 3230 yesterday night.
haha so surprised that my dad purchased it
so fast. i'll be going mad tml taking pictures.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

anyway went to bishan park with
edwin, meiyin & her friend yesterday evening.
edwin & me jogged
meiyin & friend played badminton
did quite a number of press ups too

arh! now whole body ache
especially my trachea,
so pain when i woke up this morning.

haha. now i know that monkeys exist in bishan park.

sighs. i dun like the feeling of staying
at home during evenings.
the sun will set, the sky will turn dark..
it seems like the world is collapsing..
then i'll begin to have negative thoughts
again.
-i'm scared- =(

peeps, gotta listen to <> by daniel powter.

2005-09-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

2005-09-24T10:05:00.000+08:00

ah haha. i've found my songs!!
one of them is...
'photograph' by nickelback (nice song)
the lyrics is sooooo long.
----------------------------------------------
PHOTOGRAPH

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the prison outa fix it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time I had better things to do
Criminal records said I've broken twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if its too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Last man and now that it was back then
If I was them I woulndnt let me in

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Goodbye

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday wed find out how if feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I cannot believe it
So hard to stay
So hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I have the photo that was printed on my bedroom door
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
Its time to say, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me
---------------------------------------------------

Arghhhh. just now my neck pain
now spreading to my head
later blood clot...ahh haha hope not
i'll die one day too

2005-09-24T07:23:00.000+08:00

what an unlucky morning!!
i slipped and fell down in the toilet
hit my spinal cord a little
hit my cervical...not sure..now my neck is still in pain
and argh..hit my lower part of the head on a step.
lucky i raised my head a bit. or else i'll end up in the hospital bah
i may die if i'm 70...haha but i'm 16 only.
haven told my parents about it...shhhh not nice to make family worry lah.

woke up around 5 plus
just engrossed in some thoughts until 6.30
read the newspapers until 7. then...tOiLet!! sighs.

ahh...my father just promised me a nokia 3230
but we've agreed that i dig out $100 for it
haha. weee~ can snap pictures soon. =P

how how? my neck still in pain argh.
what if one day i just end up in hospital?
never thought of it w0rx

heh. maybe my brain will be affected
and my memory will fade away..
and i can just forget about some things..

2005-09-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

oh well
i scored 78/100 for biology
mdm yong decided to add 5 marks to everyone
therefore i've moderated...it'll be 81/100 bah
cos she wanted to cut down the no. of failures
not bad my marks. anyway i still need to work harder.
-------------------------------------------------------

w0 hen xiang ku, zhe mo ban?

I guess i'm really feeling very gloomy again.
i just can't get those things out of my head..

wish that i can forget everything..at once
i guess time heals

i dunnno. u said u dunno.
a dunno world. a confused world.

maybe someday everything will change..
and change to what it'll be like few months ago..before 5th july..
a time machine is all i need

maybe u and i will be stranger to each other again..

tell me what u're thinking..
so that everything can be cleared without dragging on.
it seems that i'll be having a bad weekend..
and i know u'll be enjoying yourself.

-after all, u're the only one that i've fell in love so deeply-

no one will understand.

2005-09-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

smile.
just now chat with wan rong on the phone.
she sounded absolutely depressed.
hmm told me she did not too well for prelims..
yeah should motivate her!! haha
she said i can be an advisor..haha hope so
it's good to encourage ppl haha supporting other ppl

a person needs to manage his/her own things well
studies......projects blah blah...need to be planned b4 doing
basically have a system bah!!

well, sometimes i need to be firm t00..
can give advises to others but can't manage myself on some matters
sigh-- weakness

+i know everything will be alright+
+looking forward to ur reply+
+last paper le, jia you!+ =)=]

2005-09-22T18:40:00.000+08:00

--at least i've made things clearer now--

--let's look forward to the future--

=) =]

2005-09-22T17:30:00.000+08:00

---- i feel so hurt now
---- i felt cheated

Got back some of my results today =)
-chem 81/100
-social studies 34/50
-e math 87/100
-a math paper1 63/80
-physics paper1 28/40

it's u who motivated me to work hard.. (".)

the theme for prom nite is 'black & white'!! haha.
wat should i wear on that day?
left side black, right side white? =P maybe

hmmm...sighs-

-leave everything alone? or...-

2005-09-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

i noe i have tonnes & tonnes of things to blog.
dunno where to start.
sighs----
anyway went out with edwin today
saw many interesting things =)
guess i just wan to relax myself..don't want to feel depress
i have too many things in mind...too many..
had a headache yesterdae night nothing cures..not even anesthetics...not even analgesics
hardly ate anything todae...argh. any gestric medicine?
maybe jus trying hard to forget some things...but i noe that's not easy

we went to queenway SC
i bought a shirt =))
edwin bought a shirt too
i love queensway, always will find my type of shirts there
haha. anyone who shop with me will find it mad!!
cos i'm a 'love-to-shop' type

oh ya. thinking of changing a phone now. cos my line is almost over
any recommedation? =)
7270, or.....@#$%^&
haha i dunno.

we went to see went to see discus later on.
omg they're so cute ok. esp the babies
reared before last time
& i hate red worms so much. argh nvm
-cutie fishes-
weee~ so nice to swim in the water
if that's me i rather drown inside.. sighs

argh. next destination is orchard.
inside HMV so shiok. can listen songs for free. haha.
but feels like crying when played one or two songs
nvm.
haha omg so funny ok. haha as we walked past this trolley owned one old couple,
they actually scolded some %^&^%%^ to some students who were taking some survey
haha. "k.n.n.b.c.c.b" by the husband...hahaha. so many ppl looking at them
=P if u dunno this can ask others.
-end of life-

-reached home at 6 plus (i hate to return home early)
-i wished not to return home
-i wished i had not switch on the computer the day b4
-i wished i did not see some things
-i wished i had not known... nvm.

i always thought that u were mine...my only one..
maybe the messages u sent were lies...lies that i did not know abt
"baby".............????

some things look easy but seem complicated. i dunno
no one knows..

shed a tear last night. meaningless tear.
no one will believe..

i dunno what to do now. should i jus forget everything?
concentrate on studies? or..........really dunno. i dunno
sometimes i may be over-sensitive.
sometimes i just think too much.
but what to do? forget everything? i dunno

i appreciated friends who are there
like edwin..
jia en who sent me songs n said that it's good to share things
n rhowena who needed encouragement frm me cos of exam matters
mei yin who listens to my lame jokes
& my "family"
grandmother : me ( haha)
grandsons : whye keat, ye shen
granddaughters : khoon leng, joleen, siti hawa, zhi ying.....
maybe i should buy some gifts for them when i graduated this yr =)

sometimes i just take things for granted i know...
...& i realised that today.
i also chatted with someone today. i admired his blog so much since early this yr bah.
not because of artistic, but of the feelings n emotions he wrote.
so nice of it to be read!

right now i'm still confused.
really wished to know the facts soon..

.anyway wish ya all the best 4 exams tml.

how i wish i could surrender my soul;
shed the clothes that become my skin;
see the liar that burns within my needing.
how i wish i'd chosen darkness from cold.
how i wish i had screamed out loud,
instead i've found no meaning.

i guess it's time i run far, far away; find the comfort in pain,
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
i've heard what they say, but i'm not here for trouble.
it's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

how i wish i could walk through the doors of my mind;
hold the memory close at hand,
help me understand the years.
how i wish i could choose between heaven & hell.
how i wiah i would save my soul.
i'm so cold from fear.

2005-09-20T17:36:00.000+08:00

PRELIMS ARE OVER.
TARGETING 'o' LEVEL NOW.

MaYbe i'M jusT a Nobody in someone's life
- disappointed ='( -

i feel like breaking down..

2005-08-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

Looking at your picture from when

we first met

You gave me a smile that I could

never forget

And nothing I could do could

protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger

Always in my mind

The days they went cause we

stayed up all night

Yeah, you and I were everything,

everything to me

All the doors are closing

I'm trying to move my head

And deep inside I wish it was me

instead

My dreams are empty from the

day

The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know that

I've been fighting to let you go

Some days I'll make it through,

and then there's nights that never

end

I wish that I could believe that

there's a day you'll come back to

But still I have to say I would do it

all again, just want you to know

That since I lost you,

I lost myself

I know I can't fake it, there's no

one else

-----------------------------------
haha, i hope that the above will not happen to me
i'll not be blogging so often as
exams are round the corner
take care peeps, especially my precious one

2005-08-05T14:38:00.000+08:00

mAny mAny mAny mAny mAny things happened this week
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaa
nvm, i shall not talk about them

went for A haircut today
haha promised my grandaughter
LOH KHOON LENG to post my pic here
anyway i have not been posting photos

sMiLEeeee

pIc blur mE blur

yi tian yi tian guo qu le
guo qing ri yao dao le
wo hui zi ji yi ge ren qing zu ma?
haha you mei you ren yao yue wo chu qu?

2005-07-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

STRAITS

TIMES

SCHOOL

OF

ROCK

R0X

although idon't really know the bands' name
but some played VERY well =)

2005-07-30T14:17:00.000+08:00

oH mY gOsH......!!!!!!!!!!
i just love potatos
u noe from morning till now all i've eaten was potatos...??
haha in school i ate $2 of the kind of fried potatos
then outside i bought pringles

I'LL get sick soon...
...& maybe lying on bed forever

people will pity me
cos i become the limelight

anyone wanna try to cure me?
haha find a vaccine to cure me

la la la la la la la la~
+ i'm waiting for ya... +

2005-07-29T13:53:00.000+08:00

haha. i agree with rhowena
her msn nick type

"in every relationship, trust is important . . ."

haha i wanna add in one more thing

". . . sincere t00" =P

2005-07-29T13:34:00.000+08:00

+ haha, opps =X +

2005-07-28T15:45:00.000+08:00

Hmmm
what should i blog?
i know i have tonnes & tonnes of thing to say
but i can't think of it
has been stressed for almost a week
tests tests tests tests blah blah blah.........
finally, i'm free

...but confused, & confused, & confused
i'm confused
i'm confused
i'm confused
i'm confused . . . .

I'm troubled over something
I just found my weakness- over sensitive
i just care about what other people said
about me, about other people...
what they said seems to rotate round & round my mind
sometimes i just think too much abt that
that can lead to jealousy

i'll be jealous easily, i swear
but jealous for a reasonable reason
a reason of the cause that appears in my mind non-stop
i just can't stop engrossing in such a thought
unless it has been peacefully put to rest

my heart is always locked
i seldom let anyone know what i am thinking

u're an angel
if only u are the key to my heart..

i just want to stay happy, no complications
i hate wars, i hate conflicts
i hate people who are money faces
to me, money is not everything
yes money can bring happiness
but not happiness for a lifetime
enough money for me is enough
enough for me to live

all i want is a happy life with my someone
like a fairy tale
a human's world fairy tale...

+ ALL THAT I"VE GOT +

i hate it i hate it i hate it
i hate it when i screwed up my test
i hate it
especially my biology test
i don't have enough time for it
7 marks flew away just like that
i'm disapponted
i'm stupid

towards the weekend
i hope something nice or pleasant will happen..

2005-07-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

-i'm addicted to this song, nice tune nice lyrics-

2005-07-23T11:57:00.000+08:00

One day = 365 days to me
one week = 365 x 7 = 2555 days to me
"days to me" is the SI unit for me

hahahahahahahaha~~
i'm crazy
i haven blog for one week
that's equal to 2555 days to me =P

Alright, that's all for todays math lesson

nowadays so buzy
tests everyday
& the teachers keep postponing tests
AS A RESULT, next wk :
mon physics
tue e math
wed english
thur bio & chem

stress huh

nvm, still got baby :)
wo hen xiang ni, ni zhi bu zhi dao..?

2005-07-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

I have this confuse feeling
i dun feel like doing anything
i dreamt of u again
i'm missing u more & more

things that u said tend to recur in my mind. an illusion?

2005-07-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

It's already mid of July,
4 more months to major exam
already trying very hard to catch up my studies
journey is difficult but i'll do it i noe
-I'LL DO IT-

At least i hav my baby walking this journey with me
i wouldn't be feeling lonely
baby...baby...baby.....CUTE baby

nowadays lessons are so slack
maybe the teachers are still in their holiday mood
no homework...wasting some of our time...
blah blah, prefer study at home
one day at home can do more things ok
no no, study with my baby is the best

2005-07-10T20:06:00.000+08:00

wAhAhA~ i'm now in the NDP fever!!!
dl the mp3 & mv of NDP 05 theme song
= reach out for the skies =
gonna memorise the lyrics & sing with all my heart during ND
hahahaha~~ i'm mad...

At a time when hope was low
The journey seems unsure
But through it all
We've kept the flame alive

Now standing proud and tall
Our spirit strong and free
Building on hopes and dreams
It's here we want to be

Chorus
Let's reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we'll all achieve
We'll make our destiny

Let's reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we'll all achieve
Let's soar and reach for the skies

When I think about my dreams
The future it can be
The time has come for me
To strive and to achieve

With hopes within our hearts
As one hand in hand
For family and our friends
Let's do the best we can

aRgh...my mum bought clothes for me again
from S&K
the design not bad la
i like it =)
i love S&K designs, suits me always yea

+ for me, there's only uUuU +

2005-07-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

YeEpEe~ sec 4 NC0 passing out today
looking back...
sec1 - no post
sec 2 to 3 - assistant unit head Savvy
sec 3 to 4 - assistant overall in charge Peirce sjab Alpha
sec 4 - "senior citizen" =P

guess wat? omg, promotion t00
lookin back...hmm
sec1 - private
sec 2 - corporal (double promotion)
sec 3 - sergent
sec 4 - staff sergent???

+ i only got 1 baby, my precious baby + * +

+ yes, i'm tokin abt U... + * +

2005-07-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

++ a sms u sent = a thousand hearts i received ++

2005-07-06T19:18:00.000+08:00

::: moments :::

it was e day for the choirs to perform at victoria theatre
yeah, choirs from various schools
thx dan for the red tickets

invited cute meL along

e performance was awesome
especially the introduction
love the candle lights & smoky atmosphere
agree?

-and i wish to have never ending moments...-

+ can i say this ticket meant alot to me? +

2005-07-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

::: took these from my house :::

- anyone willing to watch the sunset with me? =P -

2005-07-03T19:39:00.000+08:00

+ i dreamed of u during my afternoon nap +

2005-07-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

Thinkin of it now
managing public duties at concerts is not an easy thing
although khoon leng gave me free ticket & i'm wearin home clothes
i still needa help out

a frien/'someone' invited me to sch band concert
couldn't manage to find peeps to go with me
i regretted not goin, blamed myself.
hope everything was alrite 4 u

at the concert
when zhang shan wei sang the 2 songs,
was wonderin how sweet it'll be if e person was there beside me,
both sitting on the mat as everyone else did
listenin to the romantic melodies..
shaked the thoughts off my head,
suddenly realised that i'm alone
alone staring
alone...alone... . : . * . : . * . : . * . : .

2005-07-03T00:59:00.000+08:00

::Bishan street 23 Live Concert::

::this is zhang shan wei, cant see the stage it's too small::

::whao~ peirce sj models huh::

::fall in!::

::typical singaporean actions::

::one of my grandaughter - loh khoon leng. muahahaha::

actually still got other celebs
sly, taufik, jones shi kang jun, fann, liang jia ban(comedy nite actors)
but the effects of photos sux
so i gave up takin.

2005-07-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

:::QuIeT NiGhT LoNeLy nIgHt:::

2005-07-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

::took this last wk::

2005-07-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

oMg, stopped blogging for sometime
no time heh
gotta rush through my work
maybe i'll blog once or twice a week
anyone objects? =P

went for a hair cut today with daniel
i like it~ - the style
anyway MT oral i've not gave my best shot
regretted -sigh-

wat's a relationship?
sort of serious game? or..
i dunno. jus feel that i'm not ready for it yet
although i admire u alot...
let's jus concentrate on study
life is about a route
a route of decisions
everyone will start off with the same status
then spread to different paths n branches
in the end, the branches will combine together again
everyone will still experience death
should be fortunate as who u r
to everyone, live with =))) yea?

2005-06-26T19:11:00.000+08:00

School's starting tml...haix

person 1 : u broke ur promise
it seems tat u dunwan to tok to me
if tat's e case
i'll do the same
i feel like blockin u in msn..

person 2 : i rejected ur invitations
i feel tat u don't wan 2 tok to me
are u tat petty?

person 3 : it has been months since u blocked me last yr
no reason was said for doin tat
forget it

--heartbroken--

2005-06-23T21:51:00.000+08:00

Why can't i download most of the english songs in mirc?
so fedup...

Anyway anyone got these songs?
corrine may - save me
papa roach - scars
daniel powter - bad day
jason mraz - wordplay
gavin degraw - i don't wanna be

one song i dunno the title
its courus goes like this
'oh oh oh she's following me,
oh oh oh she's out on the tree..............i wanna marry my stocker'
anyone got these songs must send me lehx
orelse i'll be heartbroken

-tired....not mentally but physically-

2005-06-23T13:13:00.000+08:00

Changed a few things here
regulars will notice =)

Later gonna go out
study t00

I read a forum yesterdae
the stories the person posted are fantistic
he talk about his life in e past in S'pore
fly kite, marbles, five stones blah blah...
now i think he 50+
how i wish i can go back to the past & lead a simple life
i dun mind living standard poor
as long as i'm happi

happi means satisfied = no stress

oh damn, i forgot to take breakfast
lunch t00

2005-06-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

i online until forgot to take dinner
haha~ seems that i have gastric problem..
anyone can teach me how gain weight?
i wonder y the tv always shows lose weight programmes
they're so bias... %#$$^% wanna complain to mediacorp

I HATE TUITION...wasted my p-r-e-c-i-o-u-s time
& the kao peh kao bu lady...
If someone can teach me english then gd gd
can't watch tv tonite cos of this

haix~ haix~
the fake 'punk'...u better reveal urself oR i shall name u
C-H-I-C-K-E-N + one feet!

2005-06-22T11:09:00.000+08:00

School's so boring
Lazy to go today as only has one lesson-chemistry
Stay at home self study lorx
Ermm...anyone dun mind teaching me chem & phy? =P

Will have tuition at night
& i have not done her work...
i'm dead...khoon leng, pls prepare my funeral...

this is the last wk of holiday
wish i could go out shop & shop
after this wk, no more play, no more slacking
jus work & work & work...
anyone wanna watch initial D with me?

2005-06-19T13:35:00.000+08:00

Studied yesterday.
Must prepare myself for school reopen.

Yesterday also went to chinatown with my family.
Dinner at a chinese restuarant, damn expensive...
delicious food doesn't need to be expensive right?

after that we walked & walked to singapore river
jus viewed the seneries..nice place for couples
my dad sitted on a seat behind a couple..
he was takin photos....& u noe wat??
he farted......whahahaha~ shiok
haha the couple turned back but nv do anything
then the gal giggled...hahaha~ my dad n us quickly ran away

2005-06-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

A math test yesterdae quite easy
haha...i skipped physics & biology
lessons ended at 9.30am for me
reached home myself...so lonely...

Recently downloaded many songs from the net...
whahaha~ got simple plan, jolin tsai,
liang jing ru, bowling for soup, daniel zhang feng qi
intend to dl backstreet boys & ocean ou de yang
i'm crazy---
the Jue Dui superstar was so shiok..haha
saw many cuties...~ =P

音乐日记---nowadays lazy to listen...
how i wish ling zhi is back & continue to host
how i wish she can host 2300 ji mo you ren pei again...
sighxxx

thanx to those peeps who care for me =)
=) =) =) =) =) =) *****

2005-06-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

Shit X3
I have not studied for my A math test tml...
AHHH~
forget it...dun feel like going to school tml
I'm so lazy.

-Life is the same everyday-

So deep that I didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that I didn't even bleed catch me I..

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that I didn't even bleed catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

2005-06-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

this whole week remedial
i no mood for remedial lehx...how ar?
but no choice still must go

nothing to blog...
pUnk mE

2005-06-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

Done with two compo & one compre
so glad... =D
my left index finger is in pain
reddish...cos writing too much

as usual, my phone is not fixed yet
mum & dad went to causeway point nokia service centre
but it was closed
as i said, heaven always opposes with me

i feel better todae
but tml? i dunno...

2005-06-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

gonna do two compo & one compre today
all because of tml's tuition...

2005-06-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

Bought a new shirt today.
I guess anyone who read my previous blog would probably ask:
still got m00d to shop?
actually i went to fix my phone & bought it along the way.
when i found out that the nokia shop had closed down,
FEDUP.
i dunno y heaven always OPPOSE with me...y?

feeling down...
feel like giving my wrist a preasure...
burst my artery...
let go of my stressful fresh blood + soul...

Tuesday nite my tuitor msg me
was thinkin replyin her on wed
in the end phone dead.
previously once, she msg me a few times
i did not reply
in e end she replied "do u still wan to hav tuition?"
Wat is this? i dunwan the same thing to happen!
now all my information is stored in my phone...
how am i going to DIG them out??????
it's not inside my card OK...

sunday there's a sjab course
i wonder y sec4 students still need to go for all these...
Aren't they preparing for major exam?
speech dae? y cant other levels take over?
sec3 busy...how abt sec2s?
we cant let their standard remains this way OK
i'm now stressed up...
events crush here & there with each other..
can't i have A BREAK?

People who noes me will noe i'm the responsible type
who care about every activites...
but...do they noe what is FAN NAO?
i had never feel this way b4!
headache for days...Great Depression
if this continues i'm not gonna CARE ABOUT ANYTHING except my studies
friends? wats friends for? nth? i dunno...
just tok to mum abt these thingys
almost broke down but i held my tears back...

no one will noe how i feel...
no one...not even an ant...or micro bacteria...
sorry if i'm too harsh
my above words, are not meant to accuse or blame anyone
i noe i can only blame myself of coming into this foolish world.......

2005-06-10T22:17:00.000+08:00

I AM FEDUP

2005-06-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

Thinkin of using bigger font...
my phone buttons worked awhile this morning
i saw 4 SMSes...one from rhowena, one sharon, one ms poon
and.........it jammed again.
USELESS PHONE...or me?

Fixing my phone afterwards
going to toa payoh nokia shop

i had a headache yesterdae nite
i'm stressed up i think
stressed about my phone? or..
stress = mental problem
cure = ziyi + panadol.
- hopeless -

2005-06-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

Suddenly i felt myself so useless, restless...
Dun feel like bloggin unless someone save me...

2005-06-08T22:24:00.000+08:00

I can't live without my hp...
my tuitor msg me & i did not reply yet...
all because of my fuckin hp can't work...mental problem...
i'm now stressed up...absolutely pissed off...
i dunno wat am i doin...or y am i bloggin...
-confused- ='(

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they reach their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshop pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy
Is anybody gonna save me
Can anybody tell me what's goin' on
Tell me what's goin' on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that somethin' is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Makin' kids feel like it's World War III
No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy
Is anybody gonna save me
Can anybody tell me what's goin on
Tell me what's goin' on
If you open your eyes
You'll see that somethin'is wrong

2005-06-06T18:23:00.000+08:00

LoL...haha jus now so funny...
a spider hopped onto my leg...
i slammed my leg on the floor...
the spider hopped away...
i hunted for it...
found it & burned it =P...

2005-06-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

Daniel jio me out today...
supposed meet at 9am but i'm 20min late...
anyway we watched starwars at plaza sing, 10am show
quite nice la...but ending so sad...

After that meet sam ann & tabi...
went for lunch & then heeren...
hehx...we took neo prints =)

I also bought a...

2005-06-05T20:56:00.000+08:00

y0x, jus now nv go out lah~
stay at home study...
found this picture on other ppl blog...
hehe~ so CUTE......awww

2005-06-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

WaaaaaaaaaaaaaH~ so tired...
woke up 11 then 12 tuition...
lucky my tuitor todae nv kao pe kao bu... =P
English? what's that?
Nvm...just study lorx...

Later thinking of going AMK central with mum, cousins, aunt...
Nvm...just go...shopping also not bad...
near to the Sembawang bookstore got one shop the clothes so nice...
Awww...i wanna buy the whole stall...awwww~

Weee~ next wk i think whole week no needa go sch...
Slack at home? study? hang outside?
i dunno...
anyway waiting for ppl jio me out...
cos i lazy to ask ppl...whahaha~

Thinkin of piercing ear hole...
anyone wanna go with me?
well i guess no one...

2005-06-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

Whahaha~ just now evening chat with LOH KHOON LENG my grandaughter...
so funny... =P

Speech 1

Speech 2

Speech 3

Speech 4

Speech 5

Speech 6

Speech 7

Speech 8

2005-06-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

Whahaha~
todae nth much to do...
study, watch tv
see my bro poly life so gd...i also wan~
nvm...i wait...lalalala...

todae i killed lots of ant...
I HATE ANTS...all over my room
what the fuck...
dunno y they like to conquer my room
maybe it's nice? haha
u noe wat i did to them...when study that time...
any ant appear on my table...i jus put them on my paper...
use my paint marker to paint n engulf them...
whahahahaha~~~ i'm so cruel...& that's me =P
so interesting lehz...woohoohoo~

-crazy me-
-__-

2005-06-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

Actually todae wanna go grandma house...
that's what my mum told me yesterdae...
but todae she changed her mind...
& my mood switched too...
-haix- nvm

Guess nobody wanna jio me out...
i'm so lonely at home...
living meaningless day by day...nite by nite.......
*lonely, i'm so lonely, i have nobody, to call my owwnnn~*

Wat should i do todae?
1) read newspaper
2) cut fingernails whahaha~
3) chemistry chap 1 & 2
4) physics chap 1 & 2
really hope i can complete my task...

Haiz...i think i'm the kind of person who likes to act blur...
so people can take advantage of me...
but i wanna tell those peeps...
act blur doesn't mean that i dunno wats going on ard...i hav a clear mind...!
so pls dun be f00led...fuckers~
i noe i got a good temper too...
so to those peeps, dun test my patience...
(sorry if i'm too harsh in my words...)

2005-06-02T15:46:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 11+
homealone again...haix
nth to eat...nvm lorx...jus dun eat
lazy me...

switch on my com
start to do my 'no hope' thingys again
print song lyrics...arranged my mp3 songs...record some songs
i felt as if i'm a dj...whahaha~

promised jolene help her with her blog
=) sent me her pics
wah~ one of them she & yeshen ah
haha one so pretty the other so shuai haha

i added a visitors counter on my blog..nice huh
i spent lots of time on this blog..
haha anyway i'm the type who, when do sth must do it well
thx for the peeps who visit =)
i'll blog often...

yesterday suddenly asked myself a question...
what's life? haha i suddenly felt life is so meaningless...
maybe i keep stayin at home doin nth?...i dunno...
hope i can do sth useful in life..

i'm sick of my dad...one time loves to scold n nag, e other time not
dunno if this follows with his mood...
i felt he's kinda unreasonable sometimes to us...or maybe i was jus 'hu si luan xiang'...
forget it...

2005-06-01T14:36:00.000+08:00

Today came back from S'pore poly experience
it's so boring, go there thought can know more about life science courses
but we end up baking cup cakes...
...food & nutrition
-bored-

These few days modify my blog alot
can say i'm done with it
yup... =)
hope ppl will like it

0 level chinese done.
but score well? hope so
my mid-yr marks:
-eng 55.3 c5-
-chi 58.1 c5-
-a math 81.5 a1-
-e math 86.4 a1-
-bio 87.3 a1-
-chem 52.1 c5-
-phy 60.2 b4-
-ss,hi 66.5 b3-
L1R5:15
L1R4:11
class position:8
level position:10 (like tat also can get top...haix)

How i wish i can get these marks or do better in e o lvl.......hmm, i'll do it!

2005-05-31T22:09:00.000+08:00

y0x everyone
modifying blog in process.
haha i two month never blog liao...so guai rite?
cya later~

oH mY...wHeN wILL i waKe uP...?

2005-04-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hey dad look at me, think back & talk to me. DID I GROW UP ACCORDING TO PLAN???

aM i waStIng mY TIME?

Let the rain fall down, & WAKE MY DREAMxS...please...

CaN i SuRvIvE?

wHen cAn FairY tAle coMe t0 Me...?

wHo wIll briNg OuT e BeSt iN Me?

*******************************************

HeLp Me~~ fIgUrE OuT ThE DiFfErEnCe bEtWeEn :

-rIgHt & wRoNg-

-wEaK & sToNg-

-dAy & nIgHt wHeRe i BeLoNg-

hElP mE~~

-MaKe tHe rIgHt dEciSiOns knOw wHiCh WaY tO tUrN-

-LeSSoNs tO lEaRn-...

...& just what my purpose is here.......

Dear readers~

2005-03-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

I will not be blogging frequently from now cos of my examinations... thank you for ur support but free to come here horx... =)

Sec 1 NE Camp...& EL Tution

2005-03-15T20:59:00.000+08:00

This morning 3am i slept bcos i talked on phone lorx hehex. Woke up at 6.30am. Went to school. My whole head was like 'gong gong'. Hahax...in the bus i also haven woke up yet...people went to work i went to school...haix

Anyway today we were supposed to introduce to the sec 1s what we did in uniform groups. As i am from the SJAB, we did 1st aid of course. We divided each house members into 4 different groups: CPR, Case study, explore the 1st Aid Kit & Transportation of Casualty. I was slacking all day...hahax The sec 1s all cute cute one...but some so quiet...like me lax last time also like that. But i had changed alot lorx...from quiet became more noisy...yeah that's what people said about me..Overall quite fun lahX~

Then reached home online then talk on phone then slp then woke up then tution. Today learned about oral lorx. I read the passage so monotonous...hahax...but my tutor quite good lax...elaborate more on how to improve in reading unlike my EL teacher.

nth to do again...

2005-03-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

Took out my Bio file. Saw this pic...laugh until i StOmAcHaChE hahahahahahahahahahahaaax

hahaha...i drew this chicken foot during my biology practical...lol

I Nothing To Do Day...:...

2005-03-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

Lalalalalala~ i today nth to do woRx...did a bit of homework only. I wanna buy one alarm clock, make spects and cut my hair lehx...my hair so long already...Played with my mp3 player today...i go record the song ransom letter from radio...hahax government so stupid one...we don'y have to download also can mah~ Then i took out my camera...Whaoooo~ mIrIcLe happened...actually nth lax...hahax i just took photos with it....hahax ScReWeD yOu!!! :P "dot dot dot..."

That's my MP3 player! Stupid 'victory' hand...don't block my view laHx~ dotdot "that's my hand ok....." -_-

My mum had donated to the NKF Children's Medical Fund then they gave this cute little pen thingy to us...hehex cute right?

"PiAkPiAk..........I aLsO WaNt To taKe PhoTo!!........~"

Obviously that's me laHx~

-PuG JellY-RaNsOm LeTtEr-

so you stole my heart, and left me a ransom letter
demanding I treat you better, should I ever want it back and
now I'm all alone
dreams are all forgotten, memories all turned rotten, it's not
the same on the phone

-
so what's up girl?
things haven't changed a bit since we last met
I bet my bottom dollar you're the best, girl that I ever had
I never wanna lose you
so what's up?

-
I can't let you walk away
we planned to live forever in each others arms
so
please hold on
you know-no one will love you like i do!
and that's the thing-you know it too

-
I hear our song; it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
I'm all alone and I just want you to hold
please take my hand. never let me go
I hear our song it keeps playing on the radio
you're on my mind, I can't let you go
please make your mind up, don't see what the future holds

LoNg bLoGiNg hOLidAy...

2005-03-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

WaHHHH~~~~~ So long never blog liao. Almost one week... lazy? or busy? hahax dot dot dooot! Haix MaRcH holiday so sianx...obviously i will homealone do homework one laHx~

School reopen tests:

Chinese

A Math

Biology

Chemistry

Physics

How am i going to study????? NVM...one week...see lorx

Thursday my father bought mp3 player + speaker free for me and my brother. Hahax i can blast my room now lorx...my brother's player only got afew songs, mine got 106 songs, he still wanna HAO LIAN...

Friday Mrs Ong Cried lehx...i also dunno y. She say she was very frustrated with our class.Aiyax...she always nag nag nag our class one lax...Other person is the Stupid BALA. Every morning also stand at the back gate there catch late comers...Front gate also have wat...y go back gate? Like me so much issit? Every morning wanna see me issit? Siao BALA~GILA Then we after recess never go hall he caught us. Other classes also have wat...Somemore wanna issue warning letter...waste paper...hahax can go sue him not environment friendly...hahahax lol

PROGRESS REPORT TERM ONE:

ENGLISH: E8!!!!???

CHINESE: B3

COMBINED HUMANITES: B3

A MATH: A1

E MATH A1

BIOLOGY: A1

CHEMISTRY : B4

PHYSICS : A1

This few days many things happened...I'm so confused...I'm lost...I do not know what to do...should I? or should I not? I dunno...I really dunno...

2005-03-07T20:43:00.000+08:00

Todae no worries in school. Mrs Ong never come. hahax got free CME & English lesson. Wah~ so Shiok woRx. But i very Guai one lax. Did my math papers which no one force me to do. :P

Todae math lesson i VERY NOT ATTENTIVE in class woRx. I played with my cube cube which i made from xxxxxx(dunno how to spell). Then i use the silver paint to paint all over. Paint until my hands also got painted...

My music video nice rite? i changed it again to Perfect by Simple Plan. :) K lax gotta do my hwk now. Wed Amath common test & Fri Chem test. BTW today yes933 Yin Yue Ri Ji quite nice woRx...

n0 m00d

2005-03-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

Today, I don't have mood to blog...

Burb~ burrrrrrrrrb~ ahem...

2005-03-05T20:55:00.000+08:00

Aiya, today i nothing to do lax. I changed my music video. Hahax tat Boulevard Of Broken Dreams listen until sianx already. So i changed it to Almost by Bowling For Soup. Sounds nice right? & can also make people happier yeah baby~

Todae nothing to do lorx...go sch wasted a bit of my time. Actually i can stay at home complete my school work one. Sighx~ but not bad lax...hahax got buddies like sharon, shui cheng, wan rong, ah chia & the blah blah blahxxx......s accompany me chat chat...chat until so fun woRx hahax i like chatting with frienxxss.

Wah~ a few days ago i told my mum i failed English lehx. Obviously she never scold me lax. She immediately 'bought' me a tution teacher & will deliver to my house tomorrow. hahax so gd worx :P

ok lax no much to talk le...i'll stop here...byebye~~~~~~

S|aNx~

2005-03-03T16:12:00.000+08:00

Few days never blog already. Too much things to do lorx. What you expect? Test here test there... Hahax yesterdae funny worx, we were issued the insurance paper. Then on top of it says all the types of permanent injuries and the amount of insurance the company had to pay. hahax. Then Mer & Cang make fun of it...keep asking people "U wan a free handphone? Chop off ur thumbs can already.." hahahahahax...i there laughing non-stop lorx~. ;'D

Todae Chinese test i did not study at all. All because i was doing my composition the whole night until 1.30am. The new YES 933 Pei Fen show not nice one, so boring...at night she played all the tunes so loud & funky one...people wanna sleep lorx. Hope she can improve on her show. I prefered Ling Zhi's 2300 Ji Mo You Ren Pei. Really miss that show very much cos the background music very nice & alsoLing Zhi voice lax~.

School sux today. Heavy books drived me crazy whole day. I hated odd week thursday. Always need to bring all the science books. Hahax todae school got one big big gossip woRx~. Everyone go and read today The Straits Times page 4. It's for me to know and for you to find out who... ;P

:D :P :) pHoTos time WorX~

2005-02-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

hahax yesterdae i took some photos lorx...hahax nth to do mah. My mother baked a cake, but cannot make it one. hahahax but the appearance quite nice. Despite the fact of the appearance, cannot judge the cake by its cover woRx~ hahax

I also nth to do laHx...take pictures of my CNY shirt...hahax very nice horx...yA loRx

Mondae y Y y Y?

2005-02-28T15:44:00.000+08:00

Todae is a bad dae. Very bad, absolutely bad. Got bad my biology test results...hmmm i had 22/25. Very bad. i Expected my marks to be 23 or 24. How can i believe it? Anyway my biology this term results was 83/100. Although 1st in class, i was not satisfied. :( i noe i can do better than that shit.

English lessons we registered for the 'o' level papers. Haix todae keep 'o' level here 'o' level there...don't know when my 'o' level can be over. Aiyox...the dates for this year 'o' level is out lorx...gonna make a timetable later worx...Social Studies tests results i not satisfied. Very lousy.

Todae math lesson i keep singing in class worx...hahax dunno y. Go recall back all my songs i sang last year. hahax :P

'O' level result release todae. I went to the hall to watch & listen. Waoxx...tlast year sec 4 results so good worx...Most above national lorx. Heard liao i nervous le. Next year will be my turn sitting in that bloody place and wait for my results. I think i will faint lax. Or maybe heartattack only. Or....cannot wake up anymore........................................hahax jk lahx. So many people sob sob lehx. i saw already also wanna cry. :'( Haix. Must buck up on my studies. It's a MUST!
YeAh BaBY~

MoDiFy iT?

2005-02-27T16:46:00.000+08:00

Wah Lao Eh, todae wake up i modify my blog again. Cos yesterdae some people say my blog too girlish lorx, so i change it. Hope u all dun find it girlish anymore. =) Time now is about to reach 5pm already. I'm still slacking around. Don't want to do my work, don't want to study, do this stupid blog for what, waste my time, this year 'o' level lehx...u NOE OR NOT?..................dot dot

Blogging horx i try not to use improper (sms style) English. Because later my language will be weaken & also proper English words is longer, so it will help me too fill up more space in this blog. hahaha, my mother is lucky to have born a clever child... :P

Nowadays so sad lehx. Because the '2300 ji mo you ren pei' 11pm show in yes 933 had ended on Friday. So sad lorx, now weekdays 11pm cannot hear Ling Zhi voice le. :'(

Oh Yes!

2005-02-26T13:19:00.000+08:00

Finally, finally. i've done with my blog! Yeah baby. Oh so tired. Although i'm happi, i'm dead t00. I haven prepare for my tution later!! Dead. Later gonna meet my ... i'm short of time. How good if the world can give us save time in a bank...hahahax dot dot. Aiya anyway remember tag here ok! Bye~

Mid-Ending Process

2005-02-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

Hehex, my blog wanna finish already. Still left the tagboard, profile and experiment some movie videos. hahahaha, well i'm so intelligent oh yes~. I take some parts from here, some parts from there, then combined together to become my blog. Muahahahaha~ hoho~ Hope u all jealous of my blog...lol =) sad horx my blog...the music, sentences, pictures...& many more~ haix

Yesterdae, haix so sad sia. My compo only got just pass. So sickening. My English aRx~ can u pull up your socks? Aiyox...but my chem got 41half over 45 lehx. hehex so gladd. If i can get as much A1s as possible...........

Cross Country so sianx lehx. Go there do public duty, see all the stupid faces. Lucky i dun have any casualty. =) then cheer cheer cheer went home liao. Reach home immediately work on my blog. A bit headache lax...but nvm.

He||0~ AgAiN

2005-02-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

hEllo AgaIn, just wanna tell u ppl that my blog is still in process worZ~ see ya later =)